Christmas Line-up

Thursday: go home to Oshkosh, WI.  Meet up with Alex and her friends and then hopefully some of LHS '05.
Friday (Christmas Eve): sleep in as long as possible, Alex and I will help Judes with the last of the decorations and make TONS of food including deviled eggs and the best red velvet cupcakes everrrr.  AND probably take a nap on my favorite couch in the whole world.  Then we make the treck to Neenah, WI to be with my mom's side of the family.  We have a Christmas exchange with 40 of us and eat a ton of food.  In the true Christmas Eve spirit, we'll come home and make one last Christmas drink and curl up on the couch to watch Step Mom or Elf.  Step Mom if we are looking for a feel good ending, or Elf if we can get Judes to sit down and watch a really dumb movie.

Saturday (Christmas Day): now we sleep in as long as possible, before I would wait outside of Alex's room for her to finally wake up and then we sit on top of the stairs while Judith takes a picture.  gag.  Now we make a huge breakfast spread and wait to open presents until everyone is ready.  We play Christmas music on repeat and finally sit down in the living room and open the loot.  After we get ready for 45 people to come and have Judes yell at us to help more.  Everyone comes over and we have the best FOOD EVERRRR.  Christmas Ham, num num num.  Then we go out and drink a ton and I'm always hungover on the 26th.  Merry Christmas, baby.

First Spin Class....

ok so Cathy and i tried our first spin class last night...i was a little bit scared, not going to lie.  you always see like 45-50 year old women just hauling ass during those classes so i've never really had the urge to try it.  i also really dont like the feeling that you get from sitting on a bike. hard to walk/sit the next day.  so anyways, cathy talked me into try it.  mind you, i have been running about 12 miles a week (well kind of, whatever its my goal and i normally make it but sometimes i dont run for a whole week) so i feel like i'm in decent shape but jokes on me, i apparently suck at everything.  i USED to have pretty strong quads due to countless wall-sits and lunges during vball and basketball but no, not any more.  i was absolutely dying.  i was sweating more than i do running 5 miles and i was seriously out of breath.  whaaaat.  as always there was a 50 yr old skinny woman that just annihilated cathy and i - she was sprinting the WHOLE time, kill her. i almost wanted to trip her as she got off her bike but she probably would have kicked my ass.  ugh.  it was a little bit embarrassing for me and then of course, i can't walk today because my quads hurt so bad.  worst part is that i have about 30 steps to get up to get onto the train platform, i almost had to stop and take a break after about 14 stairs!  give me a treadmill and headphones and i'll be fine, a bike and techno music to pedal to - NO THANKS.

 this is what i look like on a spin bike.  yaaaa right.

holiday party

last weekend was my holiday party for work.  it was pretty awesome and fancy.  it also was my first corporate party.  last year we just went to dinner with the people in the office and their spouses, a little bit awkward because i had to beg ted to go with me so that i wasn't the 8th wheel and THEN everyone started talking about how they met and their kids. well thats nice.  ANYWAYS, my company has about 180 employees and they flew everyone out to boston where are headquarters and put us up in a hotel room.   they even flew out spouses/sig others.  it was pretty intense.  a couple of us had the same flight and went to lunch right when we got in...followed by a couple too many beers.  of course i was a little bit messy and had to go back to the hotel to shower and get ready.  not easy when you can't see.  we finally get to the banquet hall and it is beautiful.  lights everywhere, beautiful tables of appetizers and desserts as well as a couple of open/top shelf bars.  hmm so we have some drinks and food and try to mingle.  its a pretty young crowd so of course we are all judging eachother and WOW some girls have no idea of what is appropriate.  no boobs and no ass!  cmon, pull yourselves together.  nobody wants to see you do the walk of shame the next morning.  they had some pretty sick awards given out and some ridiculous raffle prizes.  all in all, it was probably a $300k party.  whaaaat.  ugh, i wish i had a date that could have experienced this with me, aka gotten just as drunk as me so i would have had someone to make sure that i got to my hotel room ok! hahaha kidding.  i was completely fine. 

spent the weekend in boston with alanna and that was a blast too.  finally saw anuj after a 2 year break.  ugh. i miss that kid!  will post pictures soon.

I am obsessed...

you HAVE to listen to rihanna's new album. first of all, look at her picture on the front of it. she is absoutely GORGEOUS. ugh i want to look like her. i have been obsessed with it for the last 4 days. i think she opened at the AMA awards but i missed the first bit of it so i didn't see her and i'm heartbroken. Rihanna at the AMAs

Favorites:
1. only girl in the world

2. say my name

3. love the way you lie pt II (google the lyrics, crazy)

4. cheers - arvil lavigne is ft'd on it which sucks but the song is a good friday night song

5. raining men - ft nicky minaj (who scares the crap out of me) is really good except for the rap part, i just dont like that girl at all

6. california king bed - the lyrics kind of get me too and her voice is siiiiick.



i havent gotten through the rest of the songs because i'm stuck on those for the moment i think S&M and skin have a good chance of being favorites too. i'll check back in 3 days when i've listened to the album on repeat all day long while i'm lying out!  she is just the coolest person, i'm dying my hair red right now.
 
 

FL for Thanksgiving. YESSS

http://www.southseas.com/

i packed 1 carry on, all i need is a couple of dresses and suits. not like i am going to impress anyone. and not really necessary to bring a change of clothes for every occasion bc the occasions will be beaching it or pooling it.



schedule:
11/23: get to boat at midnight, unpack, pjs, bed
11/24: wake up at 9, put suit on, lay on front of boat and read/listen to music and watch the dolphins, 1pm dock and walk to the beach, go back to the boat at 6pm, shower up, put sweats on, eat dinner, sleep
11/25-11/29: wake up at 9, go for a run on the beach path, rotate between beach and pool until 6 pm, shower up, sweats, dinner, sleep
 

Holiday Season = My Favorite

1.  Christmas Music: go out and buy A Very Special Christmas, its my all time favorite holiday music, ever.  we used to listen to that entire cd on repeat when we lived in our old-old house and have a fire going while decorating the tree.  i think that is my favorite memory of our family from when we were little.  oh to be 8 years old again.  my favorite song is "do you hear what i hear" by whitney houston.  all i can think about is dancing around the christmas tree!  alex and i also have a sick obsession with mariah carey's 1st christmas album.  i think my dad has told us numerous time that if he heard that cd one more time he'd kill us.  well we are still alive and you better believe that we'll have it blasting in a month.  yes.
2.  Christmas gifts:  i looove giving christmas presents. i pride myself in giving gifts that are super thoughtful and gifts that you mentioned 2 months ago that you wanted and i'm the only one weird enough to remember.  however this year i might be an awful gift giver because i have no been paying attention but i promise that next year i'll be on my game.  i also can't wait to drop the presents off at the boys n girls club.  we always have 1 or 2 families that we buy for and its so fun to pick out little kid clothes and toys.  we don't have any little ones in our family so its so fun to be in the lil girl section and pick out barbies!  and duh i love getting presents.  i want: a kindle, a wicker clothes hamper (black) and new running kicks (but i want them from a running store after they figure out what i need to make my toes stop hurting when i run so i might have to pick these out), and about 10k in cash.  that will suffice.
3.  Christmas festivities:  i work across the street from the Daly Plaza and they already have the tree up and the Christ Kindl festival starts next week.  I'm hundo German so of course this fest is for meeee. check it out: http://www.christkindlmarket.com/en/ and theres a bunch of traditional german foods, beer, trinkets.  ohhh fun.  i also really love the lights thats the lincoln park zoo puts on.  sher and i went last year and it was ridiculously cold but the lights were AMAZING.  they are not screwing around at the zoo, i would not like to see that electricity bill!  its so festive. love it.
4.  Winter wear:  i love coats and boots and hats and scarves and mittens.  end of story.  and snow pants. 

So I broke my arm on November 25th, 1997

that was pretty much my arm.  most people just crack one bone, i broke through both of them.  playing football in my backyard when i was a little shit. then set it myself and ran inside and told my nanny to take me to the hospital and then i passed out.  it was the Tuesday before Thanksgiving and they took me to the er and they said that the doctor was already out and that i would have to wait until Monday to get a cast...then they would have to re-break my arm, set it and then cast it.  my mom said no way is her 5th grader sitting there with a broken arm for almost a week, they drove me to green bay and had a cast put on.  because i snapped it back into place myself, i broke a part off of my growth plate and my right hand/wrist stopped growing.  my fingers are a little bit skinnier and that's about it.  so weird.  i have tendinitis and my wrist kills by Friday...every single week.  so right now, at 4pm on a Friday all I want to do is go home and ice my stupid wrist.  i had a blue cast.

There's a fine line between cuddling and holding someone down so they can't get away.

Oscar...my puppy

so 2 weeks ago Alanna decided that she was going to buy a puppy.  Becca and i went with her to go look at lil guys at this place on Clark, Pocket Puppies, they specialize in toy, tea cup and mini puppies!  cuteeee.  So i rolled off the couch and went with, dumbest decision of my life.  i ended up falling in love with the cutest puppy known to man.  the second we walked in - i saw him, a lil 4 week old wiener dog.  he's black and brown and very symmetric on his spots. 

We got him out of his cage and got to play with him for such a long time.  mind you, i am the person who does not like animals (dogs, birds, cats, hamsters...everything) and held a dog for the first time in my life.  he was so little that he fit in one hand!  oh when those little eyes looked up at you.  soooooooo cute.  he fell asleep in my lap and i'm pretty sure i feel in love right then and there.  he's my lil ween.  get it, wiener dog = wiener = ween.  we decided to call him oscar because you can't go around calling a dog a wiener. we had to put him back because alanna picked her puppy and i don't think i've ever been so sad. 

the second we got outta there, becca looks at me and questions if we can get a puppy or not.  i said i actually really wanted to bring him home and so did she!  we got home and looked at the lease and decided not to get too excited until we knew that we could get him.  so for the next 2 nights i was so excited that we might have a little ween running around our apartment.  turns out we couldn't get him, i dropped a few tears and haven't stopped thinking about him...when will the sadness go away? 

She's not perfect. You aren't either. If she can make you laugh, hold onto her. Give her the most you can. She will give you a part of her that she knows you can break-her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy and miss her when she's not there.... You may not be her first love, but you will be her last.

So I Married an Ax Murderer...makes me laugh

Charlie Mackenzie: Maybe it is late. You know, I'll be honest with you, I had a really great time tonight and, uh, I'd really love to kiss you but I think that if I kiss you we'll end up kissing on the couch and if we end up kissing on the couch then chances are we'll kiss in the bedroom and if we kiss in the bedroom then, you know, tha-that's the part I always rush into and I just don't think it's a good idea to rush into spending the night together.


Harriet Michaels: I wanna spend the night together.

Charlie Mackenzie: I have no problem with that!
 
---realllllly ?  really.

Hospitals are not my favorite places

Well last Monday was one of the worst monday's ever.  I ended up having to go to the er bc I lost feeling in my arm and had blocked vision. They thought I had an acute stroke behind my eyes. I had a cat scan and an MRI and both cleared the stroke.  they had to cut out my belly button ring because it was a tension ball one (whatever) bc you can't have any medal on you when you go in for an MRI.  It was so embarrassing to have a nurse have to deal with your belly button.  I'm horrified.  They had me stay overnight bc they were worried that my arm went dead bc of a blood clot so they wanted to watch me. My sister just so happened to be in town so she came and stayed w me til my mom got here. Becca and cathy dropped off a bag for me too which was super nice. Complete w cheetos, diet coke and oozing skulls. Weirddddd.


I'm apparently low in vitamin b12 which causes dizziness, numbness, loss of speech so I'm getting shots weekly. Cool. My mom has the same problem. Good to know that I don't have the shit in my body that reacts well w whatever B12 is.

I'm not sure if i could have been more annoyed than what i was on tuesday night.  i took off my heart monitor stickys and was about to rip the IV out of my arm.  i hadn't showered since 6am on monday morning, everyone and their mother was poking me with needles and asking me what my symptoms are.  READ the chart and then talk to me.  if i had to repeat myself one more time, i was going to punch someone.  i'm pretty sure that the nurses on the neuro floor were scared shitless of me.  good, serves them right.  now i owe 20k in hospital bills, my hand is all bruised from having blood drawn, i look like i shoot up bc my elbows are all red, and i am less than pleased.

 Mary:  so i think that we should be a little less crazy this weekend. i don't want to be that hungover again for a while.

---i'm going to go ahead and agree with that statement.  i was physically sick for most of saturday morning, then had to go on a boat on the river thennnnn had to rally and do it again on saturday night.  up until 6am and THEN got back up by like 9am.  what is wrong with me.  i'm tired of being in my early 20s.

"I'm happy, because I'm attractive, and I have lots of friends. You sad sack of shit."


STM - funnnnny

Weird Squash/Pumpkin

this is is what Pete thought would be reallllly funny to leave on my desk.

why is it shaped like this?  it makes me feel weird.  and the colors are just strange, go pack go, but for real?

 a swan?  how festive.

Rival teams

I decided today that I don't like it when other people don't like the same sports teams as me.   Everyone on facebook were gearing up for the Packers/Bears game and now that Moss is back with the VikQueens that is becoming an issue and now my Badgers are takin a hit from Michigan State and Gopher fans.  For real?  Either get on my side or get out.

NFL: Packers
NCAA Fball: Wisco Badgers
NCAA BBall: Marquette Golden Eagles
NBA: Don't care
---other sports, dont' care.  I'm serious about this.  Get on the bandwagon.

"HEY! Just because I said I love you doesn't mean I have to buy you something expensive."


but yes, yes it does.  i'll take a canary yellow diamond (google heidi klum's 10 carat ring),  a trip to italy or a new wardrobe.  thanks :D

Sickly.

Bronchitis


Acute bronchitis is most often caused by viruses that infect the epithelium of the bronchi, resulting in inflammation and increased secretion of mucus. Cough, a common symptom of acute bronchitis, develops in an attempt to expel the excess mucus from the lungs. Other common symptoms include sore throat, runny nose, nasal congestion (coryza), low-grade fever, pleurisy, malaise, and the production of sputum.[1]

Acute bronchitis often develops during the course of an upper respiratory infection (URI) such as the common cold or influenza.

I have been sick for 2 weeks.  Granted I'm not a man with white hair, but i think my lungs feel like that picture looks.  Someone bring me soup and a new tv for my room so i can lay in bed and watch a movie.

That's the difference between you and me. Your heart is filled with hate, and mine is filled with kittens. Mmmm, kittens. Meow

-sleeptalkinman

Long hair.

I've decided that i hate short hair.  this is the 2nd time that i've chopped my hair off, the first time being sophomore year when i cut off 14 inches (stupid) and had boy hair for about a year and then in june when i cut 7 inches off.  why do i put myself through this!?!?! 

i can't stand long hair because of the strands of hair that i find everywhere, they are so long and gross that it ends up making me want to vomit and then i decide that hey, if i had shorter hair then this wouldn't bother me.  well now all i can think about is having my long hair back (can't decide if i want it dark brown or light? but that is a different story). wake me up in a year and a half when my hair is down past my shoulders.  i'm crying.

Fall/Winter Line-up

9/30: Lion King
10/1: Judith and Big K visiting Chicago and going to get wined and dined!
10/8-9: MKE trip to visit and a wedding!
10/24: Fright Fest with the laaaaaadies
10/30: Flapper time for Halloween.  Hello 1920s
11/6: Aunt Connie's wedding, hoooooray :D
11/7:  First trip to Lambeau in 2010.  Go PACK Go!
11/23-11/29:  Florida vacation to visit my parents on the boat!
12/9-12: Trip to Boston.  Thursday is the office holiday party, Friday-Sunday is tourist time in Boston!
12/22-12/26:  Oshkosh, Wisco for Christmas.
1/17-1/21:  Florida vaction to visit my parents...again!

Today is September 27th, 2010

2008 = Waking up on the way to Indiana not knowing where I was...going to the ND vs Purdue, Ashton's Birthday mess with Cathy's ridiculous night ending with Kim and I yelling profanities down Water Street.
2009= Spent at Cork n Kerry's drinking too many Cherry Bombs. Falling asleep on the floor next to Becca, only to wake up with a large pitbull sharing a pillow with me. 
2010 = Watching the Packers run all over the Bears at Will's Northwoods Inn, alone. 

Happy Birthday Ashtonbaby

Thank you +1 for making me feel like crap..

Got my first wedding invite today.  Yep, address to Kaitlynn Koeppler.  Not "The Koeppler Family" for once!  However, on the RSVP there was definitely a +1.  That's super.  Thank you +1 for making me feel like a big pile of crap.  I pretty much wanted there to be a section that I could check that said "ridin' solo" but there wasn't.  No joke that I could have made on that f'ing invite.  Jokes on me. 

Whatever, I'm gonna look smokin and go home alone....to my parents house.  Somebody give me a gun.

This was me..

(920): Just made my alarm the Lion King song. Too excited about waking up to sleep.

--- one and only time i made it onto TFLN.  too bad that was back in may.  not anymoreeeee.  rawr

Fall

Today is the first day of fall and i am actually very excited.  this summer was pretty fun but i'm ready for the leaves to turn and for apple cider and pumpkin spice smells to be the norm.  i loooove fall.  i'm obsessed with wearing jackets.  from northface to pea coats to wool trenchcoats all the way to long down jackets.  ohhh i loooove them.  i have about 6 jackets that i will use in rotation once it gets cold enough and i will wear them with pride until next may! 

i'm also pretty excited about the little farmer opening back up - its a pumpkin patch and corn maze in fond du lac wisco and they have the best carmel apples EVERRRR.  http://www.mytlf.com/  and have apple and pumpkin pie to dieeee for.  you can go apple picking, go on a hay rides and pick a pumpkin to take home!  how exciting! i cannot wait to gooooo.

i also love the fall a ton because of football.  i looooove wearing a hoodie and jeans and curling up on the couch to watch my boys throw the ball around.  i love sweatshirts and jeans and tennis shoes.  i want to wear that right now.  yay fall.  yayyyyy.

New Apartment

so i recently moved into a new apartment in chicago.  it was time to leave wrigleyville, i had had it with cub games and constant going out.  granted it was summer and it was nice to stop on the way home from work and grab a drink but i can't keep acting like a drunk fool so it was time to class it up by moving to lincoln park.  first off all, instead of being a 12-15 minute walk from the train, i am now only 5-7 minutes!  wahoooo and i cut down 15 minutes of being on the train = almost a half an hour off of my commute.  so much happier!

i'm so happy to have upgraded apartments, dont get me wrong, i loved my little coach house but now we have a great 3 bedroom flat right on lincoln ave and have SO much more space.  did i mention that i'm also living with becca and cathy?!?!  so excited to be in a 3 bedroom and not just a 2!  no offense cathy, but 2 is better than 1 and 3 > 2.

i feel like things are finally looking up :D

"You're in the crosshairs of my love. And my aim is true. Bitch."


-from sleeptalkinman.blogspot...he makes me laugh.

Train

today was an awful way to start a thursday. for once it wasn't already 100% humidity and 90 degrees when i walked to the train so i thought i may have had potential for showing up today with my hair down and NOT sweaty.  ya so i get up to the train, right as its leaving.  COOL.  alright fine, at least i can sit on the bench and wait for the next one.  not that bad.  so i get on the next one and its packed.  i stand by the door and proceed to be smashed after every stop.  finally people stop trying to cram on because its too packed!!!!  by this time i'm not holding onto anything, sweating and am being touched by 5 other people.  UGH.  worst part is, i'm jammed up against the back of a disgusting bum.  yup, touching someone that has not showered or washed his clothes in a long time. GROSSSSSS.   then the other bum that he is with starts talking to him = approx 3 teeth and cig/whiskey breath.  and he's talking towards my face.  WHAT.  i had to stand there smelling the stench of the bum right next to me and then have that bum breathe all over me.  IT WAS terrible, i wanted to get off the train and wait for the next one but it was so packed that i couldn't have even gotten off.  ick.

then i finally get to my beloved washington/wells stop and look at my phone and sure enough have a text from alanna saying " okay i'm about to barf and had to tell someone this before i have a heart attach..there was drunk shirtless man masturbating on the train this morning"  what is wrong with you sick weirdos!?!?!  put on a shirt, brush your teeth and stop touching yourself.  OR do all of that but don't get on the 7 oclock train.  it is far too early to have shit like that happen to people.  sick. sick. sick.

iTunes raped me...

Since when did iTunes up their prices?!?!?  i was absolutely shocked when i went to download a couple of songs and the price was $1.29.  WHAT THE HELL.  i haven't used my iTunes store thingy in a long time because Kim had turned me onto mp3panda.com where the songs are .10-.15 cents instead of the .99 at iTunes - however, the website kinda sucks because if the album hasn't been released yet, then the songs aren't out there!  soooo in order to download california gurls i had to go to iTunes because i can't wait another month to put it on my iPod!!!  nuts.  i'm so mad that i just bought 5 songs that used to cost me $4.95 that i now paid $6.45 for.  what a joke.  apple runs the world, give me cheaper songs.  jerks. 

oh well, not like i'm not going to listen to those songs about 30 x in a row for the next two weeks...

anyone want a burned cd with my purchases on it (good think mp3panda had a decent selection or else this list would look super lame):
emii - magic (badass)
love the way you lie - ri ri and em
i like it - enrique and pitbull (i still love escape the best)
cooler than me - mike posner (i'm cooler than everyone)
california gurls - maxim's 100 winner

Hello roommate getting in on the blog action

here's a lil shout out to my fellow coach house-er and her new blog and new life. welcome to anthem's of a 23 year old

shout out blog

Red Eye Article tells the truth...again

Red Eye Artcle: Edward Cullen, Perfect Boyfriend

Girls, i suggest that you read this and then re-evaluate how your life is.  real like guys are not edward cullen, nobody will treat you like a 300 yr old vampy with morals.  only drunkos at lion's head waiting to take you upstairs to the apartment and grind on you.  why is it that there is someone right in front of you and you can't stop drinking that stupid PBR in order to be with someone that actually gives a damn about your sober life.  let's face it, none of your drunk friends really care that you made your first deal on thursday july 22nd but your girlfriend has to listen because she is an actual friend.

Looks like girls grow up way faster than bros do..  "As I get older, these little things have become much more meaningful to me. I know. I'm even vomiting in my mouth a little. Sorry."  yup - same here, hello to a new KK, no more feelings or caring until the little things are there.  any other not worth it.  new leaf.

this weeks obsession...

ok so a majority of saturday night was spent creepin on some of my girl crushes...dont worry i wasn't alone doing this by myself - a few of us were having some drinks and needed some tunes.  so of course i put on rhianna, and beyonce (duh), then of course j to the LO.  we were sitting there, guys and girls watching how gorgeous and hot these girls were.  not that i like girls, definitely not, but it was like body jealousy to the max.   i would give my entire left arm (big anti bc i'm left handed) and possibly an ear to have a bod like beyonce or a face like ri-ri (however, not the hair, she looks scary w that mohawk crap).  even jennifer lopez, whatever she's married to a guy that looks like he's coked out and has had 3 divorces but crap, her abs in jenny from the block are SICK.  she kept on holding her shirt up to show her abs, kinda lame, but cmon if i had those abs - i'd never wear a shirt.  this is also the reason why i'm trying to eat healthy and do p90x...we'll see if i can get j lo abs and beyonce's thighs. 

ugh jealousy stinks. 

J.Lo's abs
beyonce's crazy body

softball

i have played softball for the 2nd time in my life, last night.  it was supposed to be a fun game but then i realized that softball/baseball is the dummest sport - next to golf.  there is nothing about softball that would make me actually like it, other than the beer drinking but i don't really need an excuse like softball to drink a beer. 

i don't understand just standing there and hoping the ball comes to you, at least in basketball theres always something to do when your weak side, have the ball or on defense.  also, i don't like balls that can hurt you.  sure i've taken a kill here and there off the body but good god do softballs hurt more.  we were playing around last night and i took one right in the leg, left a cool bruise (NOT) and left everyone laughing at me. 

also, i decided that i don't like 1-on-1 incidents during sports.  i like full 5-on-5 and so on, interaction.  when its just the pitcher and batter, its way too much attention on 2 people.  i missed the ball like 4 times and felt so stupid.  i hate my life.

another week...

i started my new job yesterday and after doing nothing for 2 weeks, i'm exhausted already!  i didn't just sit on my ass at home but man, being on call from 8-6 pm and having to be professional after doing NOTHING, is reallllly hard!  i'm going to start going to bed at 9 pm!

this weekend will be fun though, fireworks are always fun.  last year it didn't work out to see the actual fireworks in mke or in chicago but this year i'm going to make an effort to see a firework...even if its just one boom, i'll be satisfied. 



...my mistake, my illusion

its been a month..

i haven't had the time nor mental capacity to "blog" about anything.  it's been a a hectic month and i've been drowning in life decisions, therefore a silly little blog wasn't really in my time frame to do things. 

since the end of may:

• i quit both of my jobs and had 3 offers on the table in the same week.  i decided to take a fulltime position in the loop in order to stay in the city and do what i want. 
• i turned 23
• i walked with a ton of other women for a cure for cancer
• i found out that the person i would have spent the rest of my life with, didn't feel the same way anymore

its been a hell of a month and my insides are gone.  gone as in like - i can't eat, i can't keep anything down and i can't sleep.  my head is beyond repair and its hard because time seems to go by so slowly.  i am off for 2.5 weeks and all i can think about is my new job, my new commute (only 1 L train stop difference but no seagulls, thank god), and my night/weekend activity being at a stand still. 

i have felt like all of my thoughts and dreams for the future have been crushed and now need to be brand new.  i've had a silly little pipe dream in my head that i was going to spend my life with someone.  i know its a silly dream to have at 23 but when things are mentioned and said about the future, its hard to not get excited for it.  i've always wanted to be older so that "the future" could start and now there's no hope for that, because here i am, i'm 23 years old and was looking forward to being 25 tomorrow.   i'm the type of person that gets something in my head and it stays there - plans to go to MN in august = already in my head,  a musical in the end of september = already in my head, a 2 year anniversary = already planned to go somewhere to celebrate and you can't celebrate an anniversary along, gone.  just a lot of hurt from broken promises and dreams.

its just been a nightmare in my head and i can't wait for the day until my saddened mind and heart are ok. 

To the Women of Chicago:

ok so summer is almost here, and the weather has definitely given us a taste of what's to come.  it was smoldering hot the last couple of days and yes, it is hot, but ladies, PLEASE COVER YOUR ROLLS.  i'm sorry to be so blunt, but just because its 80 degrees, doesn't give you the right to let your belly hang out of your shits and your butt cheeks out of your shorts.  it is hot, but not that hot that you can't cover an extra 3 inches of skin. 

yesterday, i was walking home from work and saw a decent sized woman walking in front of me in the smallest jean shorts i've ever seen.  they wouldn't have fit a 5 yr old and some how she squeezed her legs and ass into those things and buttoned them up.  i was amazed and also threw up from the cellulite coming from the back.  girl, get some bigger shorts.  you'll be able to walk easier and sit easier...plus what happens if you go to the bathroom and can't get the zipper back up?  IT GETS WORSE.  i caught up with her at a red light and sure enough the girl has no bra on.  ok i was blessed (only in this scenario) with small boobs and can most of the time get away without wearing a bra, but this girl, omg she had torpedoes and nothing to support them.  it was so bad, not tasteful and not good looking. yes, boobs are hot and blah blah but no man in their right sense would have those this chick was hot. 

i'm afraid to go to the beach this weekend because i'm sure there are going to be a lot of itty bitty bikinis everywhere on some not so itty bitty bodies.  wear a moo moo or a pair or shorts that fit you, ladies, please i'm begging.

i'll be there in bball shorts and a tshirt just so that i don't gross anyone out.

Caught Comando

i probably shouldnt tell you guys this but its funny enough and i apparently have no shame so here it goes:

ok well, i had an interview today in oak brook. alex told me it would be a 2 hour drive so being a weirdo, i decided to drive there in a pair of shorts so that i wouldn't wrinkle my pants. soooooo i pulled over in an empty parking lot to switch into pants and tuck my shirt in and so on. WELL, i had no undies on!!!!!!! the shorts that i was wearing have the built in underwear (running shorts have those) so i apparently didn't realize it until i had to wear pants that didn't have built in undies!!! i was mortified and thought, welp this should be fun. everytime i had to stand up, i was so embarassed. it was awful.

of all the things that i prepared for and all the time i spent picking out my outfit, i never in a bazillion years thought that i would be interviewing comando. shoot me now.

HAHAHA i am the most embarassing person ever. ugh. laugh at me all you want, but make this a lesson to you : always wear underwear!

 

Cute Old People

Soooooo bored today but i realized that old people are cute.  i'm on my 1,150th prospect into an excel spreadshit and have seen some funny names (byrd and kittie) , saw that there is a "keppler" road in IL and have realized that a lot of the older generation share email addresses:
- thejohnsonfam@hotmail
- kandkhansen@gmail
- mikeandjenna@sbcglobal
- and so on...

how cute are they?  they are clearly not sending dirty emails to their mistresses/pool boys and are comfortable enough to have all emails be seen by the other.  granted, my parents don't have a communal email address but my mom does look at all of my dads at one time or another because he can't figure out gmail. hahahah.  and whats the difference, if your bank account is shared and your cell phones are on the same bill, shouldn't you be able to figure out by one of those if anything sketchy is going on?   i think its cute...would i ever share with my guy?  sure, i'd want him to share with me but not the other way around.  i shop way too much online and would get judged for all the shopping websites that email me, talk wayyyy to much with my girl friends, and i'd have to tell my side boyfriend not to email me anymore, jk jk.  i'm not sure if i would share an address...maybe in the future when i have kids and am getting emails about parent/teacher conferences and when/where basketball practice is so that i can make my guy do the carpooling. 

maybe there will be a kaitlynnandXXXXX@gmail ?!??! HA barf.

Class of 2009

Marquette graduation is this weekend and i'm feeling a little sad that sunday marks the 1 yr anniversary of the Class of 2009's graduation.  i had a great time at graduation sitting with my girlies from the school of business...however, my body was not happy AT ALL.  i was sunburned from the baseball game, chubby bc of how much beer and fast food i consumed, and a little bit hungover from downing drinks to make dinner a little bit easier with the stratmans and koepplers together.   all in all, i loved senior year and everything that came with it.

i dont know if you know me very well, but i was a bit of a tool until the middle of junior year and didn't really like marquette/milwaukee/life and i am SO HAPPY that i finally became a human and had a life!  i was such a loser that nobody even remembers me before junior year, how sad is that?  kind of ok though bc i had awful blonde hair and about 30 lbs extra in mid section ( "you were a bit chubby" -direct quote from judes).  i'm going to get a little bit sappy here and say a couple of thanks to those people who made marquette and the last 2 years of school a blast:

-kim:  from the first time we told eachother our life stories in mccormic to waking up in my bed after the infamous nap on the 4th of july not knowing how we got there, to sharing clothes, to operation KK and ALL of our emails, thanks for being my first friend. awww.
-montron:  thanks for being there every thurs/fri/saturday with a case of bud light and a pizza to start the night off, "dude, i just did something really bad...me too" i'll never be able to drink skol vodka again

-wendy:  thanks for giving me strep throat 2 times and thanks for letting me lay on your bed and chat a bazillion times.  i don't know if anyone else cries at the lion king because they are so happy for them but us two!

-cathy:  thank  god we made it through 1st semester of junior yr and put those days behind us!  i'm glad we were little partners in crime senior year, i'm pretty sure that every fri consisted of me asking you if you made it to work, sat consisted of the question if we were still alive and sun if anyone wanted chinese...i'm glad things still haven't changed :D 

-becca:  although your cough was pretty sick, i'm glad that i shared a bed with you during SB09.  i will never forget walking into murphys after my last final and seeing you at the end of the bar with your shades on bawling to "graduation"  i'm so happy that we are fweinds and can't wait to have you live here :D

obivously i dont want to leave out ashton, alanna, clare, michela and katrina.  thank you girls for having faith in me...i wasn't just the girl that lived with kim!  from crashing on ashton/alanna's floor on sundays during movie day, to michela's xmas card, to the XXX birthday that had everyone in tears, to katrina and i surviving dance class at the y.  you guys seriously made me enjoy the last 2 years at marquette and every night of the year "so college"

Spending Budget

this is the first time in my life that i am putting myself on a store list and budget for a shopping spree.  i neeeeed new business casual because i look like a child in my suit that i got when i was fat.  HOWEVER, i cannot bring myself to spend a hundo on a pair of pants.  i'm heading up to the pleasant prairie, sconnie outlets to do some damage.  too bad i'm limiting myself to stores with no fun clothes in them.  boo. 

this is the look i'm going for...hahaha

THE LION KING

I almost started to get happy tears on the train to work today...why?? because i was reading the redeye and sure enough there was a full page ad for the lion king coming back to chicago!!!!  its been 5 years since its been here and boy am i excited!!!!  the lion king is my 2nd favorite movie of all time (behind the little mermaid) and i'm so obsessed with nahla that i was a little jealous that halle berry named her daughter nahla before i could.  my best friends, alex and jenna, and i would play the lion king and run around on all fours.  of course, i was always nahla.  i can still probably recite the movie word for word.  HOWEVER, i went to watch in a couple of months ago and it wasn't in my dvd case.  which one of you stole my lion king dvd!?!

i did some searching on line for tickets and i can't decide which ones i want to get.  i saw wicked and we were too close to see the whole set and i feel like you have to be able to see EVERYTHING for the lion king.  i'm thinking maybe like the first couple rows in the balcony???  oh gosh i cannot wait.  i'm gonna be a mighty king, so enemies beware!  hoooooooorayyyy.

HERE'S the LINK if you want to buy me tickets :D

ok so yesterday wasn't that bad...

i got a call back for a 2nd interview, so MAYBE yesterday wasn't all that bad.  hehehe.

today is tuesday.

This monday is going down in history for worst monday...everrr

well today, may 17th 2010, is the worst monday i've ever had.  why?  because it just SUCKS.  actually because i scheduled an interview for monday morning.  that is the dumbest thing to do, don't do it. everrr.

it started when i woke up, i got up at 3:31 am.  why?  idk.  so i fell back asleep until 7:30 and woke up with the worst sore neck/ribs/back ever.  it feels like i slept on 807 peas and trust me, i am no princess.  sick. 
fast forward to 10 oclock, i decided to drive to the el because of the rain and because of my errands for after work.  too bad today is one of those stupid street cleaning days so everybody that normally parks by the el only had 1 side of the street to park on!  i didn't have enough time to go back home and walk so i just drove around for 10 minutes until i found a spot.  gah.
finally time for my interview,  well it was in the olympia centre on michigan ave and chicago = intense.  i had to change my shoes in the elevator and fix myself up from the 5 block walk all by the time i got to to the 17th floor.  did i mention that i shared the elevator for 14 of those floors so that means i really only had 3 to get myself together.  ahhh.
then the interview started off well, i was in a conference room that over looked water tower place and i felt like pretty cool shit.  however, didn't realize that i'd be interviewing with 3 different people.  yikes, let the shit show begin.  the first guy was fine, talked about all that random crap and then moved onto his boss = my boss.  he was so dry that it was awfully hard to make conversation with him.  ugh. THENNNN the kicker, that final person was a very harsh female.  she was one of those power tripping, tall, successful blonde that kind of reminded me of a man.  she had such an overwhelming personality and voice that it just dominated the entire room.  she went off about all this nonsense and pretty much questioned and chewed me out like a drill Sargent.  i was counting down the minutes until she let me out of that room.  right as i was leaving, she leans in and goes "you better send thank you cards right away"  no crap, does she think that i'm stupid?  ugh.  my self esteem is in the pooper.

there is no way that i will get this job, nor did i spend all that much time preparing but you know what?  it ruined my day.  monday's already start off crappy and to start it off at an interview that will go no where....even worse. 

kk has a case of the mondays....really bad.  i need a hug and a huge glass of wine (cue office space when michael bolton attacks the copier)

Don't think rationally.

just my thoughts of today:  not everything needs to be rationalized.  i mean come on, sometimes there has to be some feelings behind actions not carefully thought out actions.  they will lead you to a very boring and lonely life if you never act on how you feel.

don't over analyze EVERYTHING.  

Becca is coming to Chicago

well, my bff 4 life, becca volk, is finally moving to chicago.  back in october we both made it our goal to move to the windy city.  mine was to do it asap and becca's was to be here by june 1st.  i got lucky and had the chance to move in december and have been anxiously awaiting becca's journey to chicago. 

finally got the news on sunday night that she would be moving in 3 short weeks!  YAY.  cathy and i have been apartment shopping for her and can't wait to help her move in!  summer 2010 in the city of chicago!!!!  waahhooooo.

Hopeless Romantic

thanks to cathy and her movies, i've become a little sappy.  i think that my black heart has been replaced with a mushy, lovey-dovey heart.  not the right timing for me to be a lush and a hopeless romantic but i can't help it.  more and more i've been wishing that i could fast forward to 2012-2014 and be in my late twenties so i can bypass all of this dating bullshit of the early twenties.  it sucks.  my friends are constantly trying to find the right guy, wondering if he'll call, wondering if he's gchatting to some slu online, stalking facebook for pics and so on.  i don't want to do that, one bit.  i just want to be 26, have a constant roommate (so i can stop moving!), someone to come home to, someone to make dinner, do their laundy, and someone to sleep next to for the rest of my life.  BUT instead, i'm almost 23 years old, and in a relationship that one of us likes being an the early twenties, and one of us hates it.  guess which one i am?

i need to stop watching movies where the guy chases after the girl...since when does that actually happen? ugh today is a horrible day and i'm sick of being the head-over-heels-in-love girl to a guy that couldn't care less if he watches the hawks game with or without me.

these are the stupid movies that makes me think that i'll get a knock on my door at 10 tonight and it will be him telling me he loves me too....
-when harry met sally
-definitely maybe
-the notebook (i want a noah)
-he's just not that into you (ben affleck chasing jennifer and mac guy chasing gigi)
-whatever i'm sick of this list

i'm sticking to action movies and documentaries from now on.  here's to my black heart coming back. NO MORE crying bc no man will ever chase after me and tell me that the wants to spend the rest of his life with me, and he wants the rest of his life to start as soon as possible.

Judes is THE Best Mom

Here are some insights to my mom:  Judith Anne Koeppler.

-we call her Judes, she signs her emails as "Judes/Mom"
-she is 5'4", weighs nothing and looks super tiny
-she has sent me inspirational emails since i left home, she even once quoted neil young
-she loves my dad soooo much even though he snores, doesn't clean up and watches waaaay too much baseball
-she hates to bake but she will on christmas
-she makes THE BEST CHEESY POTS EVER.  ugh i love them
-she went to school for fashion design and economics...and designed children's clothes for Oshkosh B'Gosh
-she loves gardening and pulling weeds
-she has the best handwriting i've ever seen
-one of her feet is bigger than the other (same with meeee)
-she has a facebook and regularly comments on my wall
-she owned a successful art gallery
-she used to drive a woody station wagon
-she is a sconnie
-the list could go on and on but most importantly she is my mom :D

i had a really great time with her this weekend and wish that my parents weren't 3 hours away :(

In a summer mood

i have summer sandals on today and its sunny and i'm not wearing black = i'm in the mood for it to be 85 degrees!  however, i need it to be like 70 when i walk to work at 9am and 70 when i leave at 4pm so that i don't come into work/home drenched bc its hotter than shit outside.

on the way to work today, some bum told me that he liked my hair, i gave up my seat for a lady with a kid AND i had a great song come on my ipod right as i got off the train.  it was a good 20 minutes!  i decided that i was going to listen to another summer-esque song and i immediately went to find kenny chesney, summertime.  too bad i didn't have it on my ipod!  boo, so i settled for some beyonce and went on my way.  it got me to thinking that when i get home, i'm going to put together a summer playlist that gets me in the mood.  i can't wait until cathy and i can sit outside and enjoy the 85 degree weather, whenever it gets here.  please come now, please come now.

Playlist includes:
1. summertime - the ches  (bare feet on the dashboard = summer)
2. cold december - matt nathanson ( its been a cold december, not anymore!)
3. three little birds - bob marley  (Singin' sweet songs of melodies pure and true!!!)
4. telephone - lady gags and honey b  (Tonight I'm not takin' no calls, 'Cause I'll be dancin' = yes)
5. empire state of mind- jay z
6. umbrella - rihanna (circa 2008)
7. jai ho - no idea + the pussycat dolls
8. never know - jack johnson (probably like 10 more songs of his too)
9. so paid - akon (ted's favorite song)
10. told you so - keith urban  (dancing in the living room at 4 am with michela, ha)

apparently some chick for associatedcontent.com thinks she has the top 25 songs for summer 2010 but i beg to differ lady.  c'mon!  girl that thinks she knows everything...

The Dreaded Ex-boyfriends

What do guys do with the momentums from relationships? my guess is that guys don't think twice about keeping stuff their ex-gfs gave them?  no sentimental value in the tshirt she gave you, its still a shirt and you feel nothing towards keeping the shirt.  you can throw out all the cards/letters/pictures/knick knacks that she gave you.  no harm done, you just know that when you have a new girlfriend, you switch out the shirt or make sure you never tell your current gf, that your old gf gave that to you and you're done.  relationship over and out.

on the other hand, for girls, the situation is a little different.  girls hold onto everything, and i mean EVERYTHING.   pictures from the 1st day you met until the day you broke up, birthday cards, ticket stubs, shirts of yours, gifts and so on.  its an endless list of items that are kept, everything that you once touched, is kept. 

what to do with all of that stuff?  i've witnessed a couple of my friends go through their things and its definitely a sight to see.  i think the one that stands out the most was a high school friend of my sisters, she kept a pair of jeans that had him on it (and when i say him, i mean HIM).  she didn't wash them because she didn't want IT to be cleaned off!  remind you of someone?  ya, it reminds me of monica lewinsky.  grosssss.  friend #2 (i will keep names out of this because it may get a little crazy) walked out of the apartment and sent me a text saying her man was in her bed and she had to get out of there.  i was told to tell him to leave, wash her sheets, and get all reminisce of him out of her room.  heartless!  friend #3 laid out all of his clothes that he left at our place and told us that we could pick and choose what we wanted to keep, got some great sweats!  friend #4 continued to sleep with her ex so his stuff kept on creepin back in!  and of course, some have burned everything.  i think the burning is the best, i've seen pictures, letters, journals, teddy bears, shirts, presents and so on, go up in flames.  burn baby burn.  i think the burning actually shows that the physical memory is gone.  its a very emotional feeling to see everything burn.

for me, i haven't done anything with my collections.  i burned a couple pictures one time but i was 16 and thats when ben harper "burn one down" was big and i felt cool to burn pictures from my disposable camera.  i have 3 boxes in my closet at home of my 3 boyfriends and god knows i'm already collecting stuff from you know who..  theres "love" letters from my 7-9th grade boyfriend about how he can't live without me and how we will be together forever, there are dried flowers from homecoming dances, state basketball ticket stubs and countless pictures.  i've been doing better with ted, however, every picture and every letter is on my hard drive so i wonder if i'll have to put that in a box when we're done?????

Here's to all the girls who light their exes on fire...

Homage to My House

My parents just got home from their 6 month vaca in FL. finally back in the midwest and located in Oshkosh, WI.  its about time!  it's great that they go down there because my thanksgivings/easters have been spent in the florida sun versus the frozen tundra, but it also means that i do not go home from november until may.  i can't stand being at home, but i love my house.  its my favorite place in the whole world and has the best basement couch everrrr.  i'm so homesick for my basement, ughhhhhhhhh.  i have a great bedroom, a great bathroom and its with out a doubt the nicest home i'll ever live in.  thanks mom and dad for making me have a great home but its only downhill from there unless i marry a rich financial advisor!!!

the winter months kind of suck because we live on a river that gives a nasty wind and blowing snow, but summers, man o man, my house wins.  everyone drives up to their cabins/lake homes for the weekends, but i can drive home and have a mcmansion and 2 boats at my finger tips!  granted, i can't drive the boats but still, my dad's 2nd nickname is cap't k so he's always ready to cruise!  with access to 2 lakes and a river...you can't go wrong!  if its windy or packed on one lake...go to the other!  there's plent of boating room, sailboat races  and bars along the shore.  TAKE ME THERE NOW! 

i wish it was memorial day weekend right now.

Little Boys

if you know me at all, you would know that i'm not really a kid person. the crying, yelling, drooling, puking, annoying kid stuff is not my bag. sure some kids are cute on picture but i'm pretty sure that i will only genuinely like my own kids, and thats it. sorry friends, i will not babysit your kids. my adventure last night sums up my thoughts on kids.

my sister and i were going to the passion pit concert at the congress and sure enough we happened to be in the same neighborhood of the kids that she babysat all through college. the family consists of young parents and 3 boys, 5,6,7 in age. yikes right! well we walk in, and of course they love alex so they are yelling her name and the adventure begins. sure enough, they were all in the bath tube "swimming." i only have 1 sister and never babysat so i wasn't prepared to see 3 small boys nudie and yelling and hyper. i must have had a complete look of shock on my face bc the dad asked how i felt about kids. well sir, up until now i wanted to have 2 little boys (mainly bc i'd never want to deal with how annoying and mean my sister and i were to each other) but actually seeing how little boys are....noooooo way. i'm not cut out for boys, their lil weeeens and weird things like that creep the shit out of me and i'm done. i text'd my random guy and said that i needed to get out of there and a have a drink, stat! tubes tied/bc for the rest of my life it is!

i'm still in shock, motherhood and me do nooooot mix. ugh.


ps the passion pit concert was fun. a couple of annoying high schoolers jumping around and sweating on me, but overall a great concert. fun!

Feeling kind of old...

As senior week is about to start and facebook albums have been filled with younger kids going on spring break, I've been feeling the post college depression / transition into the mid-twenties blues...

So yesterday after work, i had a list of things to do to keep myself busy until it was late enough for me to go to bed. I completed everything on my list (for once), granted it only had 3 things on it, but whatever. As planned, right after I ran, but before I showered...I had to defrost some chicken. WELL, turns out right as i was doing that, a ted just so happen to have asked if i could make him dinner too. then it turned into this big ordeal with making chicken and rice and blah blah, when i would have been content with a chicken breast and wheat thins. i ate way more than i wanted to and dirtied all the dishes just so that it would appear to this random guy, that i can actually cook. after i cleaned everything up, i was kind of weirded out. since when do i cook? i'm the master of grilled cheeses and cereal but to make a meal? gross. take me back to the days when soup-at-hands were my lunch of choice. i'm about to hit 23 and it kind of makes me sad that i'm growing up in the food isle.

Right before i moved to chicago, my dad said that he'd never believe it that i'd move here if someone would have asked him 4 years ago. he said he expects me to still wear baggy basketball shorts and sling my hair back everyday. cmon dad! don't make me feel even older now that i graduated to heels, skinny jeans and a curling iron! of course when i get home from work, i throw on some sweats (granted they aren't lourdes knights bball sweats anymore) and sweatshirt! just because i'm almost 23, doesn't mean i'm not i'm still the same old laid back sconnie at heart!!

ugh, i turn 23 in 6 weeks. kill me now.

The Smells on My Walk to Work

This may or may not be too much information, but it needs to be said because I think about it day in and day out as i walk to and from work. I have the worst array of smells now that the weather has changed. Here is my daily intact of smelly air:

Route 1: House to Train
-Sensational Bites: yummy, delicious chocolates, cakes, brownies, bites of heaven gives off an extra sweet and "sensational" smell from the bakery that is just warming up its ovens.
-2x10 Nail Salon/Pinkys Nail Salon: the smell of chemicals that are strong enough to take off paint, skin, and to apply fake/gross nails.
-Julias Meinl: austrian coffee. enough said.

Route 2: Train to Work
-Quincy Brownline: flying-rat poo. the pigeons that live on the Quincy brownline smell like feet and crap everywhere to give the entire block around Quincy/Adams a feces stench. barf.
-Subway on Adams: the oh so enticing famous smell of Subway, it was inviting the first couple weeks, and now i'm immune. kind of sad.
-222 S. Riverside: MANURE. they just planted their spring flowers and used manure to fertilize. i know its better for the plants to grow, but thanks 222 S. Riverside for making the entire block smell like cow crap, i thought i left Wisconsin... here's a link if you'd like to use manure to fertilize your garden!!! http://http//www.finegardening.com/how-to/articles/fertilizing-old-fashioned-way-with-manure.aspx


i like it when ted takes me to work in the mornings so i don't have to smell route 1.  now i can't wait to get done with work so i can have all those delicious smells running through my nose. i wish i had allergies so i'd be too stuffed up to breath, but i don't....gotta hold my breath for 3 miles straight. ugh. 



PS. Happy Holidays to all of the stoners...

SOOOO hello. i've decided to blog at work due to my mundane work life and oh so boring schedule. just a couple random thoughts on work, friends, and life.

today i am working on some retirement planning presentations to present to clients with $10m+ in manageable assets. who in their right mind would give me 10 bucks, none the less, $10m to look after and grow?!?! nobody, thats why i'm making it for my boss who has a pretty impressive portfolio. go stuart.

i will be done with work at 6:30 and cannot wait to watch gossip girl tonight...that show just keeps on getting more twisted and risque. if you are looking for soft core porn, tune into the CW tonight to watch....xoxo gossip girl